Today I had to go to a school-home talk, like everyone else. It went fine, though I should say a bit more in math.. I kinda knew that. (But I'm just proud that I got a 4)
And a thought ocurred to me.. My teachers are really nice o.o
Although my danish teacher can be a pain in the ass, she is still much better than what others have.. And the teachers seem to like me.. o.o
And lead to the thought about my class..
I haven't been very social with them, but some of it is due to my home situation.. I have to act in a certain way at home, and sometimes I have a hard time shaking it off.. They never really see who I am.
And I can easily talk to all of them.. Atleast most of them Oo But everybody seems to respect me, and this is important..

If I stop at O.G, I'll not only loose my great classmates, but also my great teachers.. And i really have it good in my class.. I fought off some tears when I found that out today, as I was talking to the different teachers.

My dad informed my mom about the boarding school yesterday.. Can you imagine the happiness?
She wasn't.. And she wanted to know how I feel about it, and I don't want her to care Oo
I really hide everything from my parents.. Both my good and bad sides, thoughts and emotions.. Shouldn't be like that?

But my mom suggested young-home/ungdomsbolig.. I just doubt there is any here in the aera, and if I have to move to CPH, I have to move school anyway :P
*curls up*
I'm really confused.. I have no idea what to do.. My dad said he was sorry it was going like this, but still.. He want Birgitte. "Because what after 2 years?"..
Is it okay I'm confused? Oo'

IF I get a ungdomsbolig, I'll have to work even more.. Which I don't have time for :P Or live of my SU, which I don't find appeling either.. Anyway, it's going to be expensive for my parents..

But I like my school. The teachers, the people in it.. I was finally settling in..

"Are you having a good day pretty?"
"Yeah, I'm painting ^^"

Oh let me be happy sometimes ;)

It's rainy, cold, gray and windy. Everybody is getting sick with flu, swine flu, running noses and horrible coughes. Linda almost coughed her lungs up as I visited her.. Poor thing..
All the leaves are brown and is scattering around the ground. Only the hard and sticky leaves from pines are left behind, and they get plastered with light bullbs and christams garnich.
And the drakness, oh my.
Yesterday I thought is was 9 o'clock, it was 7. The darkness fucks up my and others brain, and the lazyness is almost impossible to overcome. I hate this season, it's not fun.
You have to wear coats, hats and gloves to survive, and ice cream is too cold..
How do we ever survive these months? I've done it 17 years now.. But I guess it was funnier when you were young and you could play in the snow.. Not that I want snow Oo Hell no, I'll just break a leg if I try to bicycle anywhere!

It's december very soon, and then we have yet 2 more months of winter back _ _ atleast.
Only few words left to say, and that is: I WANT LIGHT AND SUMMER! For god sake future me, run around and praies the su8n when it comes back! Oo And remember winter me, and how much I miss the summer!

I was a bit late, but I got out to Susan yesterday!
We just talked a lot, and I played a little guitar, couldn't get her to do it -.-' She has an AWESOME guitar, sounds soooo good lol
I also ate there, and good some great pasta with meat - really, it tastes fantastic!
Generally I love her house :) It's so family and hommy, and they are so open and friendly.
Anyway, I was awesome to see her, and we got talk about most stuff, like Kath ;3

I'm in school, and I have to go.. CYA

So yesterday
I went to Lyngby with Kath. I had to turn in some movies to the libary, and fetch me some money for the weekend, so it was fine with me that we couldn't be at her place. (Her sister is sick).
I also got to buy a palet! I now have three.. And I use them at the same time o.o'

We just walked around, discussion about whatever it's christmas or not ( IT'S NOT - yet), and just enjoying each other company :) Although I just came out on FB ( like, monday night?) I was nervous to run into my mom or another grown-up person.. - But luckily we didn't!
We aren't sure about our plans next week, but I'm sure we are going to catch up :) Aaaand, maybe also for a get-together with Deady and Sun! She was toally cool with it, and that made me so happy ^^
Going to arrange that sometime, but now you know atleast.
And btw, they got some mean good pancakes in Lyngby! Only 25 kr Oo - Delicious!

Today,
I'm going to visit Susan! So after school I'm getting my guitar, and I'm off to Tårnby! Really looking forward to see her, haven't seen her since.. *thinks* .. Since we stopped at I.E? Oo'
These small visits are relly keeping my mood up atm, my friends means so much to me :3
Susan offers dinner, so I'll be home late.. At my mom '>>

This weekend I'm going to stay at Linda (I'll try to make a little update), and my mom send me an email about she hoped I'll come home early sunday.. Yeah right.
I'm taking my camera with me, so hopefully going to have some great pictures :D

Happy, happy, happy ^^ Everything is really crappy actually. Birgitte can't stand me, and I'm loosing my apetite when she's in the area.. But I do eat Oo And I going to the psycologist again, mostly so I can be reasuerede I'm not crazy, and that it's Birgitte who is loopy.

Samfundsfag er da det mest kedelige!
And all the school stuff, seesm so unimportant now.. I'm moving soon anyaway, so my motivation is almost gone.
And I'm so pissed at my dad. I've lost my last respect for him, and I don't want to talk to him much. He have deselected me, and I'm going to the same thing with him.
He had the choce. Me, or Birgitte, and he choose Birgitte.. So don't blame me for feeling hurted..
I feel so unwanted, and that is horrible ya' know! I only have my friends left, which mean more for me than ever..
As soon as I'm off to boarding school, I'm going to say goodbye to my family. In holidays, I must crash friends homes..

People in my class has it so good. They know they are going to go here 3 years, and they can come to a nice family. Of course they have their ups ad downs, but their family will always catch them if they fall.. My family can say what they want, but honestly they don't want to catch me..

Anyway, going to poke my dad about visiting a boarding school near by, I think he wants that. And if I don't like it, there is one in Jutland.. >>

Bliver på dansk, og kort.
Fatter ikke helt.. Jo.
Er sendt på kostskole.
Enten det, eller Birgitte bliver alkoholiker, og jeg..

Just walked up from dinner.
Birgitte kept asking me about me and my relation to the others in the class.
I think the others are nice, but way much to alike, and I don't need their friendship to be happy. I can easily talk to them, but I don't need strong bouds with them.
I tried to explain Birgitte, that I find them a bit too alike, but they are nice, and I talk to them - she didn't believe me.
In Skovgaard, I had it horrible, I couldn't speak to them. I can with my classmate now, so I'm far from worried.
But she kept talking and asking me about it, and I ended up having countet atleast 3 attacks, before I leaved the table.
If you remember, my psycologist said I should do this.
Just poundering about what the consequences will be..

And, my dad didn't say a word under the whole "conversation"..

TODAY, I went down to the book shop (again) to buy some textile pens. I saw them yesterday, and I've thought about bying them for some time now. ANYWAY:
Each pen kosted 22 kr, and I ended up bying 5 so; 110 kr.
BUT, I said "Aren't there a little offer 5 for 100?"
and guess what! Suddenly there was :D
He was such a nice guy, and I'm going to go down there more often from now on! ^^

And the day countinuos.

I've went down to buy some soda, since my dad didn't bought any.
A young girl (20-ish) said "Is the paint on purpose or what? Cause they are cool"
I said it was on purpose, and we chatted a few lines before I went home. I was really happy the comment, and was nice to know my pants are cool ^^

So yeah, people have really been nice today :D

OH - Kath's birthday is today ^^ Gratz to her, 17 and all.

I*m not feeling very well right now ><
I'm not sick, haven't been yestt.. 7-9-13

But my parents are home again.. And since they have, I've felt nervous and jumpy.
I keep being on guard, and I sneek around the house.. I listen before I go out of the door, and try to stay here in my room. Can't believe anyone would call this my home..

There's a storm outside, so decided to skip art school. It's all dark outside oo
Do not feel good ><
Really
I don't know what to do.

What I'm fearing most, is dinner!..
I'm simply just NOT looking forward to be attacked by Birgitte.. *shakes*
Can't explain it further, that I'm nervous and scared.. Although I feel like typiing it down 100 times!

Her "new" stuff have already been sad. Like; "YUCK" and "Ew"... Like really mean. Not like: "But it doesn' smell very well.." (I said I wanted to make a toast..)
Got myself some food, very little, but I'm far from hungry..

I just want them to vanish.. And be in my bed with Kath close to me.. Just something to make me relax.. Much better than this ;A;